I had my six-month eye exam today. While of course, I would prefer to have my vision restored, I am grateful there have been no changes. I asked my ophthalmologist if there were any new developments/research regarding non-interior ischemic optic neuropathy. His response was no, not yet. He also added, that I am young enough to maybe see something happen in that field in the future. One never knows.
So I continue to remain hopeful!
Today is a special day. Today marks three years since my vision loss. While there is no Hallmark card or cake (that’s alright!) – I will celebrate! Celebrate my journey (the joys and the challenges) and the ability to continue to find ways to navigate the world around me, so very different from the world I once knew! Grateful for the help I have received along the way!
Some reflective thoughts earlier today:
- I can do all this through him who gives me strength.
- For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. ‘They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. ‘ Jeremiah 29:11
- The most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched, they must be felt with the heart. Helen Keller
- That old law about ‘an eye for an eye’ leaves everybody blind. The time is always right to do the right thing. Martin Luther King, Jr.
I am loving the warmth of this winter day and the abundant light! With non-anterior ischemic optic neuropathy, however, even with dark glasses, it is a challenge. I am struggling….
The chill in the air these last few days is a reminder that it is still winter! Yet, we have abundant light with sunny days…and though cold, we have had clear starry nights with a crescent moon (my favorite), according to local weather reports. I do miss the ability to witness sky events, like the upcoming two international spaces station passes. For those of you who plan to keep watch, bundle up and enjoy!
As I was sitting on the step on the back porch today, taking special notice that the lawn appeared green and felt soggy when I walked on it, just like it is in early spring. I held the tip of a tree branch in my hand and felt there were no buds yet. There is a slight nip in the air. The smell of a wood fire is burning close by. Ahhh…spring.
Not quite. The calendar tells me we are in the season of winter. Deceiving, though. To me… it looks, smells and feels like a perfect winter-spring day.
Last evening, December 31, 2019, the sky had an eerie glow near the Blue Mountain Ski area. It was stunning, from what I could ‘see’. It reminded me of my visit to the Arizona desert years ago. When dusk arrived, when shades of light and darkness kissed somewhere in the vast space between that desert earth and desert sky, the result was a beautiful but eerie light show. Such a gift.
As lovely as that was years ago and last night, here we are….the evening of the first day of a new year. Some of us will return to the workplace tomorrow; others will still be savoring vacation. The woman who was at Times Square yesterday to see the ball drop at midnight (because it was on her bucket list), is likely back home now.
Traditions happened today – like the string bands and brigades of the Mummers Parade in Philadelphia; like eating pork and sauerkraut or lighting bayberry candles for a year of good luck – the celebrations are over and the confetti has been swept up.
No matter how you rang in 2020, whatever new goals or plans you created for the year ahead, remember to take time to look up and around. Good things happen in unexpected places. You wouldn’t want to miss out. May gentle prayers and blessings make the journey with you.
With non – ischemic optic neuropathy, contrast is important; shades of light make much difference in the way I function daily: in bright light, I need to wear dark glasses (indoor or outdoor); in subdued light I can navigate more easily; and of course, in darkness, it is extremely difficult.
So on days when there is light, then no light, those times when the sun plays hide ‘n seek with the clouds, I struggle to keep up with the light changes!
Today, my driver stopped at a traffic light and I looked out the window. Not much to see. I thought I was looking at a field of snow – not all that unusual since we had some snow today….but to the right and to the left of this field, I only saw a darker color.
Wait, I thought to myself. How can it snow in one field and not the others directly next to it? (A very theological question…) Hmmm…It might be possible, since I have already witnessed it raining on one side of the street and not the other.
I looked away then back again – it seemed as though the snow in the field was piling up faster and faster. I asked the driver – ‘Is that snow in the field over there?’
As it turned out, it was snow geese!